A past iniquity churns in my head in the form of staggered memories-- it keeps me awake dancing in the monologue of another's voice wondering why... Chasing a lonely vesper where a certain deity's silence is louder than my own thoughts-- a twilight's fall into the unknown.
The pitter-patter of raindrops on cobblestones
when walking alone, engrossed in your memories,
your thoughts condescend behind you like a
narcissistic parent.
Vision changes, perspectives are skewed
downwards. A skeptical outlook becomes
a recording in your mind; when does it stop?
How do I get to this moment? Where did
I fucked up?
A flash of gunpowder, the mind lights up like
for the one instant where you felt hope. You
had an answer, but the voices keep coming;
smothering, snuffing; the fire is gone
and I'm suffering in silence.
Meandering roads
with a posse of rumbling motors;
shining knights of Harley Davidson
and Joe Camels in the afternoon sun.
Forty-five year old boys
eating tourist trap popsicles,
forgetting bygone years spent
behind corporate desk jobs.
A city fades in the distance
becoming a miniature village
where responsibilities await
after a ride of a lifetime ends.
Only a stretch of field separates
the river of free-flowing dreams
and tributaries of love, both of us
share the same heart-shaped box;
the key holding us together.
I search the summer skies above,
tracing the contrails of your smile,
as they billow through the myriad
of doubled hued rainbows when
the sun breaks through the storm.
Every lasting thought, plucked from
a vine of roses contains the everlasting
scent I hold close to my chest,
absorbing the very essence that'll
keep me alive while we're apart.
And when I lay my head to sleep,
the nights will give way to the voice
singing sweet nectar lullabies
and reminding me how
Suicide Note 4 - Conviction by TwilightsFall, literature
Literature
Suicide Note 4 - Conviction
Conviction, the last fleeting thought as you
look over the edge of infinity, where death
whispers under your ears, cooing you to
make the final leap of your life, seem
like the best moment.
The wind blows chills down your spine,
teetering on the cement balcony overlooking
the city skyline and two hundred seconds
before breathing your last breath,
and closing your eyes.
Free falling, with death on your chest
pushing you downward towards the smooth
running creek and the world falls away,
with only the sounds of life's echo in your ears,
quieting to a dull murmur.
"...death ends in solitude, smooth as the river flows
.
Just a picture, could mean a couple words,
But the one I hold dearly close to my heart,
Means more to me than anything else,
This photograph, you I love in black and white.
There are so many things I could say,
Though one word stands out amongst the rest,
It starts with love and ends with you,
The one I want to share with every single moment.
To be with you, at your side, and experience the joys,
Or you in my arms, holding you close to me, as you cry,
We're a team together, we work things out,
So we can both remember these dreams.
I've held your picture as I dream of us,
One day, we'll be holding our picture,
Wedding bells or bi
"You have the most entrancing eyes..."
Lost in the bespectacled reverie of her
glancing aura illuminating as we share
the last ride towards the Milky Way,
a chariot of bright glowing orange hues
and red sparkles.
"You have the smile of an angel..."
Wings, white feathers tethered to the
sinews of bone and constructed memories,
a strand that bore hope entwined with faith,
flying to somewhere into nowhere,
just as long as we had each other.
"You have the heart of a mother..."
A shooting star powered by the backlit canopy
of ideals and tribulations inside this perfect
shell call Asphodel, a goddess with unmatched
eloquence, class,
A warm breeze wafted through the canal,
As she stood on the balcony under a Tuscan sun,
Looking upwards at a cloudless sky,
Waiting, for her true love to come home.
It's been nearly two years, and two days,
His presence never graced the marble halls again,
Ever since his body rested in a watery grave,
As death set the clock of destiny.
Every Sunday, she traveled to the southern shore,
And leaned upon the olive trees,
Praying that he would meet her soon,
Right here, where they first met long time ago.
Years went by, but he never came home,
Heartbroken, she went back to the southern shore,
Weeping solemnly, tears mixed with salt w
Bottled, your feelings casting doubts without
a forethought, and hopes that seem to never
rise after the sun sets low over the horizon,
clinging on to what little faith you have.
Re-piecing your heart, waiting to be broken again
as you walk out into the world, draped in gray,
clouded by your fears of rejections and failure,
realizing the life you lived isn't worth living for.
We're all the same, we're no different than
the lives we viewed with our eyes, to the girl
standing on the corner handing out flowers,
wanting people to accept them and smile,
to the man that reassures his fellow brother
with words of encouragement while he
Into the Arms to Avalon by TwilightsFall, literature
Literature
Into the Arms to Avalon
Promises; I made one year ago,
a moment I still keep in my head,
Only my memories and dreams will know,
When her lifeless hand fell onto the bed.
Parting words are just the beginning,
Soft spoken whispers at the eve of rebirth,
No farewells since she'll be there awaiting
My return to show love all it's worth.
It takes two souls to make the journey to Avalon,
But more heart to bring us together,
The hurt and enduring pain, are gone,
A pool of new endings make afterlife better.
I can't wait till run up that hill,
See the elated smile on her face,
Watch the stars set in perfect standstill,
And wind my finger of tears that I trace.
I stood on the edge of loneliness,
As it crumbled beneath my feet,
Darkness below looked gloomy,
A wide chasm separated us.
The otherside, she was there,
Staring at me, wishing I would
Have faith and walk the thin line,
For love and freedom awaited.
There used to be three paths,
One for each of my past loves,
Where I would walk across,
To greet them one day.
My first girl, led me across,
But in the middle, she let go,
Unbalanced I scrambled back,
As she disappeared from my life.
My second, more cautious than before,
She coaxed me to come,
But when I did took my step,
She turned away forever.
I almost fell into nothingness,
Words. Hands. Hearts. by TwilightsFall, literature
Literature
Words. Hands. Hearts.
We talked again this forth night
as the wind sang through the cracks
in the walls of this house, but I wasn't
cold as her voice warmed my heart,
and set my mind in trance of her
passionate wordplay choreographed
with the calligraphy of her dreams.
I felt like I was there by her bedside,
held her hand, feeling the blood pulse
through my fingers, her breath against the
nape of my neck; she keeps the air in my lungs,
floating along as the melody strums,
and as we lay down together
I let the waters flow over us.
For the first time, silence was just a
monologue with the heartbeats
in rhythmic motion as our eyes fell
three flights
Shimmers, a turning of a leaf echoes
love's unequaled silence, floating away
into the arms of avalon's carried by
asphodel's chariot crossing an Arizona dream
before the approaching storm ignites
the fires of heaven.
As raindrops fall in spheres of memories,
whispering the soliloquy, "Swansongs of Trinity",
and lightning streaks across the ethereal dawn
forming the crescent for passion like a
cracker jack smile skipping stones
forming ripples below the mists.
Take a picture where dreams are made,
then fade to black in a dark cell from
an insomniac's meditation, for those
shadows in the wall where man
whom god forgot, lies hid
My friend Friday spends Tuesday afternoons looking for things that no one else can find. These things are small and blend with the everyday so suitably, that they elude most of us, even after our morning coffee or cigarette. But invariably Friday finds them with ease, and sets them upon my doorstep every Wednesday morning, pawing at my breakfast with his fresh wonders.
I saw a boy die yesterday! He howls, the door slamming behind him. He is not in the same room as I; he is yelling this across my house at 5:30am, eliciting angry grumbles from my somber roommates. Sending the saloons doors clacking and banging, he gushes in
An Alaskan storm introduced itself to the weather three nights ago. It shook me straight from dreaming about (really, remembering) a dance with an elderly man, my feet placed off the ground onto the tops of his shoes. A balancing act. I awoke to four-fifty five, followed by a fleeting FLASH before truly registering the dark and the storm itself. I sat up in bed to peer out the window when a FLASH FLASHED again. For a split second, the room shone brighter than day. Somewhere close by, lightning had entered conversation. The sky grumbled in response as thunder fought for last word.
Th
The Easter Journal by Term-the-Schmuck, literature
Literature
The Easter Journal
April 23, 1916 Easter Sunday
My family found it interesting that this year my twentieth birthday coincided with the rising of our Lord. I didnt really think much of it. Perhaps I should have been somewhat proud of the similarity, but it wasnt exactly the most pressing issue on my mind. Father got me a present this year, just like he said he would. He spent nearly all of his money to buy me a Winchester 1897 12-gauge shotgun that was smuggled into the country.
It was hard to come by ever since those damned Brits put up the imported weapons ban. But Father didnt want me to be stuck with some German piece of junk
Gauge a man by how strong his drink is,
while pouring smoky, wooden notes
into a shot glass boasting of hunting
deer in the woods of Tennessee.
'Take a swig old chap'
Aim down your sights,
your heart races for the kill--
feeling fire in your throat
and your eyes wavering to see
a single shot.
One too many and out
on your ass - waiting for
perdition to save you
from the bottom of a bottle.
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